Why are there so many godforsaken classes in Eddy? All I want to do is check the technology in my classroom so that I don’t look like a fool tomorrow, and every single time I’ve checked, I’ve looked like a fool for stepping into a class that isn’t mine. I dragged Brave Heart to Eddy for absolutely no purpose, and I’m probably going to flail teaching CO150 tomorrow because I can’t be a person in the 21st century who can make technology work.
It’s aggravating because I already have problems with establishing authority, so I’m gonna be all “hey students, I’m gonna tell you what to do all semester, but hey, I don’t know how to turn on a goddamn projector.” And they’ll laugh and laugh and will probably walk all over me for the remainder of the year.
Okay I’ve found something that will help me figure out, so that’s good I suppose. I’m not sure if this assignment was supposed to be a freewrite, but that’s what it ended up being. I don’t have the most exciting internal thoughts, but it’s better than inappropriate thoughts. All that’s going through my head is “AHHHHHHHH TEACHING!”, even though I thought I would be old hat at this whole thing after a semester under my belt. Huh, I’m really liking the clothing metaphors today. “Old hat” really is an odd saying, isn’t it? Like, is being an old hat really being an expert? Maybe if the topic was historical fashion. But like, would an old hat be good at technology? It would probably be less anxious about classroom technology than me. Because hats don’t have feelings.
